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shirk, shiver, slumber, stew

i have been in a winter-induced funk. hibernation is all the rage it seems with the cells in my body. i am waiting with baited breath for the replacement bulbs for my full-spectrum light box to arrive and trigger a grand serotonin jamboree in my grey matter, an upswing in my mood and renewed pumping of enthusiasm in my heart. until then, listlessness and epic desires for fatty foods prevail.

also, i am having a (somewhat regular now) existential blogging crisis (ie: what is the point?) spurred in part by revisiting the ram dass audio tape stockpile.

recent favorite things:

-organic braeburn apples (especially the runts-- stop n' shop sells bags of runt apples for a discount and they are more flavorful than their larger siblings. also, they are more fun to eat because they make me feel like a giant--i just need a slightly miniature chair to sit in when i eat one to complete the delusion.)

-the film 'chungking express' (thanks to jesse)

-swimming laps at the inflatable-bubble-dome-covered cheshire outdoor pool. the water is bathtub temperature and the dome is pumped full of hot air and bright light which lends the scene a very surreal lunar-colony-rec-center feel because the picnic tables and such are still around the lip of the pool from summertime when the dome is removed. from outside, the dome glows warmly like an improbable intimate celestial-body-next-door.

-this weird and addictive 'my virtual model' thing my mom turned me onto on the landsend.com site. you enter in your height, weight, measurements and select hair style, complexion, etc... and it makes a personalized fit-model/doppleganger. you then get to virtually try on clothes. it's fun to keep changing your weight, too, just to see how different "you" would look 40 pounds heavier. here "i" am:

before = after