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infinity of canned beans...

i am running out of money for the rest of the month. if i take out $400 cash now and set it aside until rent is due, i will be unable to fritter it away. yes, this i will do. otherwise i lose track, buying snacks left and right with my debit card in the name of instant rationalized gratification.

i just have to hide the cash somewhere i will forget about it for the short term but remember it in the long term. i could draw a treasure map and give it to my roommate for safe keeping.... i just can't be late on rent again this month. it pains me more deeply than being deprived of eating my daily ritualistic ben & jerry's 'cherry garcia peace pop' purchased from the nearby gas station at dusk.

after i pay $10 to go to the mary timony show this friday i will have no $$ to eat out. there can be no heat-crazed 'vitamin water' purchases. no slices of pizza on the fly at 11pm. no $1.79 child-sized package of greek yoghurt from the corner deli. it will be time to eat the contents of every canned good adorning the kitchen shelves--no longer will these items be relegated to the 'decorative' category. my can opener is going to be begging for a night off! my right 'can-opening' hand will permanently become a claw incapable of doing anything other than operating a can opener.

[dumpster diving is a very bad idea in summer. i will not do it until the weather is cold enough to act as a big dumpster cooler....]

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